snowing and depressed
After a gloriously warm and sunny weekend in San Francisco, where I procured some color sitting in Golden Gate Park and hanging with lots of cool people, I am now back in NYC. The weather here has been kind enough to mirror how I'm feeling: depressed. It is snowing and gray and 32° F. I was hoping for 50 degree weather, something that would announce spring and lift my spirits. Instead, Old Man Winter seems to be hanging around and will not relent this maddening precipitation. They predict snow through St. Pat's Day. Great. I can't wait. Thank god for alcohol to warm the soul.
As for my mood, remember my blog entry on rejection a few days ago? Yeah, apparently I've gotten over my fear of rejection; I now welcome it with open arms. *sigh* I've taken refuge in Westchester with my cat. She was furious with me for leaving her alone all weekend. Now she has the run of Shenan and Alex's house. Shenan made me a chocolate cake to cheer me up upon arrival, you know, all those great chemicals in chocolate. But unlike other people who get depressed and eat a gallon of Haagen Daz, I lose my appetite. In case anyone was wondering why I looked so anorexic in high school, it was stress and depression--the two states that cause me to go on unplanned diets. Booooo. But as is like me, I'm not planning on this lasting too much longer. It's been a while, so I think I'm due for a bout with depression now. I think that if something causes you to feel sucky, you should inhabit it fully, saturating every corner of your being in it so that you won't have to go back to it again.
Apparently, this is a part of my Myers-Briggs Type Indicator: (E)xtraverted i(N)tuitive (F)eeling (P)erceiving. I have a need for intense emotional experiences which is why when I feel a certain way, I want to marinate in it. But I always come out feeling more alive once I'm done. Here are two descriptions of my personality type: Champion and Inspirer. The Inspirer description is actually a really good description of me–especially the following through part and need to be excited about what I'm doing and change. I also checked to see if I'm in the right career: apparently, every career choice I have made has been appropriate to what my personality type is good at. Every item on that list has been a path I have either toyed with or am considering getting involved in. Eerie. You can take a short online test and find your MBTI personality type too.
As for my mood, remember my blog entry on rejection a few days ago? Yeah, apparently I've gotten over my fear of rejection; I now welcome it with open arms. *sigh* I've taken refuge in Westchester with my cat. She was furious with me for leaving her alone all weekend. Now she has the run of Shenan and Alex's house. Shenan made me a chocolate cake to cheer me up upon arrival, you know, all those great chemicals in chocolate. But unlike other people who get depressed and eat a gallon of Haagen Daz, I lose my appetite. In case anyone was wondering why I looked so anorexic in high school, it was stress and depression--the two states that cause me to go on unplanned diets. Booooo. But as is like me, I'm not planning on this lasting too much longer. It's been a while, so I think I'm due for a bout with depression now. I think that if something causes you to feel sucky, you should inhabit it fully, saturating every corner of your being in it so that you won't have to go back to it again.
Apparently, this is a part of my Myers-Briggs Type Indicator: (E)xtraverted i(N)tuitive (F)eeling (P)erceiving. I have a need for intense emotional experiences which is why when I feel a certain way, I want to marinate in it. But I always come out feeling more alive once I'm done. Here are two descriptions of my personality type: Champion and Inspirer. The Inspirer description is actually a really good description of me–especially the following through part and need to be excited about what I'm doing and change. I also checked to see if I'm in the right career: apparently, every career choice I have made has been appropriate to what my personality type is good at. Every item on that list has been a path I have either toyed with or am considering getting involved in. Eerie. You can take a short online test and find your MBTI personality type too.
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